Telluride, Colorado. Ever since I saw pictures of this town
in a wedding magazine 5 years ago I’ve been drawn to this town. It’s where I
wanted to get married but couldn’t due to logistics and cost. The first time I
ever stepped foot in the town in fact was about two years after I’d first been
drawn to the place. We had gone to Ouray for the annual ice climbing festival
and decided to take a side trip to Telluride to cross country ski and have
lunch. I remember being enchanted by the unpretentious houses, the endless
piles of snow and the cross country ski trail that ran along the river. My
friends had a dog with them which we were able to take up the free gondola into
mountain village and we walked around the base of the mountain while I sipped a
chai from the steaming bean. I wouldn’t be back to Telluride until a year ago
when again, we visited as a side trip from the Black Canyons of Gunnison
National Forest. Telluride was in the off season so a lot of shops were closed
and the gondola wasn’t running. It was almost a ghost town but I was still in
love with the place. Seeing the mountains at the end of town, blocking it in
and making it the box canyon it is just makes the town feel safe to me. I know
Black Bear pass runs down the mountain from Silverton but it’s a very difficult
one way only road and it feels as if Telluride is the end of the line there. The
town ends at Bridal Veil and Ingram Falls and there’s nowhere to go but up. A
little piece of my heart has always been here and somehow it feels like home.
first time in the T-ride |
a few years later with miss charlotte |
Seven months ago an idea came to me. The yoga studio I teach
at has run several retreats, a few of which I have been on but I’ve never had
the opportunity to teach at one. Somehow I had it in my head that because I’d
never been asked as a teacher on any of their retreats that I wasn’t good
enough. I watched as other teachers had their turn in the spotlights and I
waited hoping my turn would be next. I realized I placed a lot of stock in my
value as a teacher on not being asked to join in and I felt like perhaps my
turn would never come. So I decided I needed to put myself out there and see
what would happen. Why couldn’t I lead my own retreat?
Anyone that knows me
knows I have a passion for hiking. I’ve summited 34 of Colorado’s 58 14,000
foot peaks and I consider hiking one of my greatest strengths. I’ve taken
people up their first 14ers, I’ve organized camping trips for myself and large
groups of my friends. I wanted to combine my passion for teaching yoga with
hiking in a way that was affordable and accessible to a smaller group of
people. This retreat I had in mind would challenge people’s minds as well as
their bodies and it wouldn’t be for someone who wasn’t adventurous in heart. This
retreat would be about everyone staying in one spot with me, their guide and
mentor…someone who was accessible and who could be trusted. I didn’t want a
disconnect from the group from one another or from me I wanted us to all be in
this together. Seven months ago I dreamed a vision of what this retreat would
be and all roads led to Telluride. Telluride had to be the place…the home…the
beginning and the end.
Honestly I had no idea if my plan was crazy or not. To take
a friend on a hike was one thing, to teach a yoga class was another. To take
strangers on a journey on and off their mat was a new challenge entirely and
how could I be sure I was ready? I had a lot of interest at first but no
definite commitments. So I promoted and I networked, I bought ads on social
media and I talked about the retreat to anyone who would listen. I had one
person sign up…then two. I rented a space for 14 so I needed at least 3 just to
put a deposit down. There were moments where I thought perhaps I’d have to
cancel because I didn’t have enough out of pocket to cover the rest of the
house in case no one else signed up.
But, like the famous quote from Field of Dreams says, if you
build it they will come.
August 21st 2014 marked the launch of Yogi Magee
Expeditions Retreat in Telluride. Having 12 women arrive from all over Colorado
and cities outside our state was a huge moment for me. The day before everyone
arrived I sat at the Floradora, the same restaurant I’d visited on my first
trip to Telluride, and marveled at what I had created. Women were coming to my
retreat to explore, be inspired, practice yoga and challenge themselves
physically and mentally. I honestly could not have asked for a better group of
women. From my assistant Stephanie to the 12 personalities…it seemed everyone
got along like they had always known one another. There was rain and cold and
the weather forced us inside for yoga more than I would have liked and yet they
all kept smiling. Some had injuries and others suffered from the altitude on
the first hike but they all persevered. We had moments of meditation and quiet
and we had moments of laughter in the hot tub with glasses of wine after a long
day. None had been to Telluride and I saw them witness the magic of the small
former mining town just as I had many years ago. They were in awe of the
mountains and the Via Ferrata. They took pictures of the wildflowers and played
in the waterfalls. I saw these women meditate, journal, make connections with
new people, try new restaurants, be by themselves and explore and grow strong
in their practice and hiking. I know the hikes we did were not easy for some of
them but all of them made it to Blue Lake which was the apex of our journey. I
took a wrong turn on the trail and got us off track about 15 minutes but they
never lost their faith in me or the journey. In fact one of the girls turned to
me and said in that moment, “Even if we don’t make it to the lake…it’s OK.” And
at that moment I realized it really was because I was, and we were all, exactly
where we were supposed to be.
Most times after a trip is over I am sad to leave. I have
depression when a vacation comes to an end because I want to live in that
moment of happiness forever. This trip was different. It was so fulfilling in
so many ways that when it ended I wasn’t sad to say good-bye. We ended our trip
with yoga on top of Telluride Mountain after taking the gondola I had first
taken so many years ago and the moment was perfect. The clouds were starting to
part, the sun was shining and there wasn’t a breeze in the sky while we
practiced yoga. When we meditated at the end I could hear the buzz of the bees,
the chirping of birds and the quiet breathing of those 12 women around me. Our time
together had come to an end but it didn’t really feel like the end to me. When
we opened our eyes it felt like a new beginning in which anything from there on
out was possible. Just as the clouds and fog lifted from the mountains, so too
it lifted from each of us and there was nothing but blue skies to come. I know
in that moment I felt stronger, lighter and happier than I had in a long time.
There was no sadness in my heart…only happiness for the next chapter.
In hindsight the universe provided exactly what I had
needed. Had I been asked to teach at another retreat I don’t know if I would
have ever thought to put something like this together. I wouldn’t have had the
courage to go out on my own and design a retreat that was truly a labor of love
from my heart. To share my passion and teachings of yoga is a gift but to be
able to guide people on a trail in the great wide open is my dharma. I loved
being the guide and leader for the weekend and having people trust me so they
could enjoy the beauty of Colorado around them. Telluride is now a piece of
their story and hearts as much as it is in mine and that makes it all worth it
to me.
A few years ago I said I would never hike the same 14er twice. I firmly believed that once you hiked a mountain once there was no point in doing it again. Last year I hiked Bierstadt in the winter with my husband and it was a totally different experience than hiking it in the summer alone. The mountain that I had known had changed because I had changed. The terrain was the same yet different with every step as I approached each switchback with new eyes and a different stronger body. Some people might be content with doing things only once and never again because in reality they don’t want to admit that the only constant in life is change. I will be back to Telluride and it will be different because I’ll be different. The hikes will be different because the land and weather will change. We’ll climb new heights, practice new asanas and meet new friends in one of the most amazing towns I’ve ever known.
A few years ago I said I would never hike the same 14er twice. I firmly believed that once you hiked a mountain once there was no point in doing it again. Last year I hiked Bierstadt in the winter with my husband and it was a totally different experience than hiking it in the summer alone. The mountain that I had known had changed because I had changed. The terrain was the same yet different with every step as I approached each switchback with new eyes and a different stronger body. Some people might be content with doing things only once and never again because in reality they don’t want to admit that the only constant in life is change. I will be back to Telluride and it will be different because I’ll be different. The hikes will be different because the land and weather will change. We’ll climb new heights, practice new asanas and meet new friends in one of the most amazing towns I’ve ever known.
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